The fertility struggle we have has been an ongoing issue for the last year. Here is some of the many things we have been through since we started this journey.
My husband and I decided in May of 2014 that it was time to try and start our family. We felt we were at a good place in life and the next step for us was to have a baby. Month after month we were constantly let down by the negative pregnancy tests. I can’t even begin to count the amount of money we spent on them.
In September that year I went into my OBGYN to have an ultrasound done of my uterus. I simply wanted to know what I had in store for me when I did in fact get pregnant. During that appointment I was told one thing I never wanted to hear, but when I did the last year all made sense. The doctor diagnosed me with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). For those who don’t know what this is let me start of by explaining how this works a little. Every month a woman’s ovaries grow follicles, in each of these follicles is an egg that has the potential to be released and be fertilized. Usually women will have multiple follicles growing, however only one follicle is the dominant one and will be released. With PCOS a woman will have multiple follicles growing at the same rate which you would think is a great sign, it’s not. Since so many follicles are growing at the same rate a dominant follicle is not present and there for when it is time for an egg to be released there isn’t one readily available, thus resulting in the absence of her aunt flow. From that you can see that a person with PCOS has an extremely hard time getting pregnant. Impossible? No, but very hard.
At that appointment I was told that I could begin fertility treatments if I so wished. After speaking to my husband we had come to the agreement that we would try until the end of the year naturally, if by that time I wasn’t pregnant then we would allow me to begin these treatments. January came and I still was not pregnant so that was the first month of the 3 Clomid cycles I have done. I had some interesting side effects because of the Clomid, to say the least. The first two months I was always getting headaches and hot flashes, I felt like a pre-menopausal woman and I thought it was hilarious. 😀 My third month on clomid however was a much different experience. On top of having the two previous symptoms I also got very depressed for a week straight. After that week we decided it was time to take a break and work on our life as it is now.
Here we are a year from when we started trying to conceive. While I unfortunately cannot say that I am pregnant yet, I can say that because of the craziness that has come about, my husband and I are much closer than we were before.
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